Knitting Update #3: Earth Toned POUCH

So I finally finished the pouch today. It was technically finished 2 days ago, but I spent a while figuring out what the hell I wanted to do with it. So I took a break from it and decided to teach myself how to crochet. I only got the basic chain stitch down, but I decided it was perfect to be the drawstring if I turned my knitted square into a bag. And so, that is what happened.

Knitting Update #2: Earth Toned Unknown

Alright, so on my next knitting project, I chose an earthy toned yarn and decided to make a scarf. Lo and behold, I've grown tiresome and annoyed of the unraveling and fraying pieces of yarn that I figured that this so-called scarf is going to turn out crappy if I continue. I had casted on about 42 stitches and I realized 42 is too wide, especially since knitted yarn tends to stretch out anyway. I should have done about 25-30 cast-ons.

So I'm not sure what it's going to be, but for now, I'm thinking to end it sooner and make it into a drawstring pouch? I don't know. On the other hand, I also want to end it sooner because I want to learn how to crochet as it, in my opinion, looks faster and neater.

We'll see.

Knitting Update: The Phone Pouch

Hey guys... I finally finished my first knitting project! I'm sOOooooOo excited! I decided I wanted to make something small, so a cell phone pouch sounded like a good start. I learned the basic cast-on, knit stitch, and bind-off.

Voila~!

I am thinking to add giant buttons to the side, though. Maybe.

1st Semester's Over!

Hello children! Well, I know I haven't blogged in a little over 4 months. But the first semester was difficult since I had a job, too. Dorm life... not as great as it seems, I'm definitely the type who needs their space to study and relax. 95% of freshman don't have jobs, so many of them didn't understand how tired I was. Speaking of which, now that the semester is over, I am now classified as a real sophomore.

So far, I only registered for 8 units for Spring 2010... Bio 230 and English 214. Hopefully I'll get into that calculus class.... then I'll have 12 units. I'm not sure if I should take more units? Bleh we'll see, definitely don't want to take Communications. But I'm going to have to sooner or later.

The flight home was exhausting. My flight for San Diego was supposed to be at 8:45PM so I left the dorms at 5PM (considering public transportation and waiting times). I'm there waiting at the gate by 7. I get a call from Southwest and flight gets delayed to 9:30. Fine, whatever, only an hour. THEN they call again and the flight gets delayed to 10:30. Then 11, so I was like FUCK THIS! A flight attendant put me on standby to see if I could hop on a plane that was earlier than 11. And I got on, lucky me since they only had 30 seats open. So even though I didn't leave at 8:45, I left at 10 instead of 11.

Then I got sick within 24hrs of being home. I vomited for 6 hours straight (9PM til 3AM) and I vomited so much that I had no more food nor liquids to hack up and I ended up just vomiting pure blood. I didn't know this til mom walked in the room and turned the light on. That was the worst night I ever had in my entire life. The pain... the pain was indescribable. I don't know what happened, but I went into shock or something? I was cold--but hot, so I took all my clothes off. And I just shivered and sweated the whole time.

Two possible causes?
1.) Ulcer (vomiting blood is unusual apparently)
2.) Pain killer poisoning (earlier that day, I couldn't handle the 7 day migraine I had so I took a codiene and then 2 extra strength Tylenols an hour later)---TOTALLY UNINTENTIONAL, I swear.

I'm better now, but my shoulders hurt when I laugh for inhale deeply and I can't eat harsh foods. (spicey/too much dairy/etc).

Being home wasn't what I thought it would be like. Everyone sounded nicer and sweeter over the phone, that's for sure. On top of that, I think I need to have my own apartment. I don't quite feel like I live here anymore because my closet and room has been taken over. And I'm thinking to myself that if it's going to be like this, where the heck am I going to put all my things once summer comes in and I have nowhere to go? I'll be living out of my luggage even while at home, just as I am right now. Fun.

On a lighter note, I've decided to pickup a hobby that consumed time and relieved stress: KNITTING. I've been learning for a week now and I'm proud to say that I believe I have the basics down.

(courtesy of my crappy Kyocera XTC phone)

Mi Teléfono es muy mal

And so here it is, my favorite phone out of all the phones I've ever had. The Motorola Q. My first and only loved PDA phone. I loved it for its QWERTY board for easy txting, its loud (LOUD) speaker and headset (I never had to say, "What did you say??"), it had Windows Media Player, Bluetooth was a breeze, and I could easily drag and drop mp3s and make them my ringtone. The camera was shitty, but all of its other features made up for it. My service, Cricket Wireless, was great too. Unlimited everything for $50 a month. But the catch is that I could only use it in San Diego. What about San Francisco????

So now I'm with Virgin Mobile, still "prepaid," and still in high hopes that it'll work in SF. VM works off Sprint towers, so I "should" be fine. My new plan is definitely difficult because I went from unlimited minutes to an allowance of 400 anytime minutes. But that's ok--I get unlimited nights, weekends, txt, pix, e-mail, and IM (unfortunately it's only Yahoo and AIM) for $50/mo. They also let me port my number over from Cricket so I don't have to have a new one, yay!

I wouldn't mind it so much if VM didn't have such sucky phone selection and was so picky about getting phones from other services (i.e. like Verizon) on their line. So I'm stuck with this piece of shit:

The Kyocera M2000 "X-TC." It's $100 from the store, but I got it off Craigslist for $30. The QWERTY board is alright for txting, but a little awkward because the surface is so flat. Not a great thing for a guy as they have bigger hands and fingers. My biggest problem with it is the ear piece. You can't hear anything FOR SHIT. People who call me basically have to yell. And this is a known problem for the M2000, regardless if it's new or not. I got it because it was the nicest phone they had and I vowed to never give up QWERTY. The second thing that drives me crazy is the fact that I can't use my 1GB memory card the way I want to. I can't put my other mp3 ringtones on it and set it as ringtones. It'll only allow it to play as songs. Bullshit! So yeah, those two things make me want to throw it out the window.

But it's the best I can do for now. When I finally gather enough courage to be bound to a 2-year contract, I'm hoping to go with T-Mobile. Why? Well I get a discount from SF State, 12% off the monthly bill while I attend the school.

*sigh* So that's my whole dilemma for the week. -_-

Africa's Best Hair Oil

So I ran out of ideas on how to mix up my hair moisturizers. I'm also tired of having to mix-up something in my spray bottle. Lately, I've been using a mixture of distilled water, organic vegetable glycerin, cold pressed olive oil, tea tree and rosemary essential oils. That combination has really made my hair SUPER soft. The glycerin really helps to seal in the moisture. I haven't relaxed my hair in maybe 3 months and I'm trying to stretch it out. Nappy hair isn't easy to deal with and the best thing I can do for it is to condition my hair after putting chemicals in it. lol, I'm definitely OVER and traumatized from having dreadlocks as a kid because my Asian mother didn't know how to deal with black hair. That's what she gets from messing with Mandingo. Hahaha!

On the Black Hair Media Forums, the girls have been raving about Africa's Best Ultimate Oil. I couldn't believe that something that wasn't made in your own kitchen was not only cheap, but had nothing but natural oils in its ingredients. I went to the store to check it out myself and I was expecting to see the typical carcinogenic and pore clogging ingredients like mineral oil, petroleum, and Red #40 hidden somewhere.

To my surprise, there was only:

Soy Bean Oil , Walnut Seed Oil, Kiwi Fruit Extract , Olive Fruit Oil , Castor Seed Oil , Sesame Seed Oil , Jojoba Seed Oil , Carrot Seed Oil , Sweet Almond Oil , Tocopheryl Acetate (Vitamin E), Safflower Oil , Calendula Extract , Yarrow Extract , Cucumber Extract , Carrageenan Extract , Ginseng Extract , Sage Extract , Comfrey Extract , Aloe Extract

All of this in an 8 oz. bottle for about $2! So I did a hot oil treatment with it and my hair came out so shiny and soft. No frizz! Just as if I had just had my relaxer done. Great stuff!

**(I don't recommend this for people who already have straight hair as straight hair is naturally oily on its own.)**

New Shoes

R.I.P.

I got an awesome gift from BaoBao today! I so desperately needed a new pair of shoes to replace my 5-6 year old Classic Adidas. They're in good shape, but the soles are ripping out and had holes on the side. I wore them to death! They were my favorite, obviously. But I couldn't afford to replace the $95 shoes. Anyhow, instead of wearing classic white "kicks," I decided to get something more productive like running shoes. That way I can have more "UMPH" when trying to get away from the po-po (aka police).

Haha, just kidding. :P

Aren't they cute? Can't wait to put them to the real test!

In Your Face, SFSU!

I would like to announce that I finally got the last $200 yesterday afternoon and I happily deposited all of that cash into my checking account. I just paid the $1,400 moments ago and it's so relieving to be able to pay it off.

I have a place to live, yay me!

Healthy Me Post #2

I have decided to start my "diet" August 1st, but before then, I wanted to play around with juice/water fasting and some exercise routines. Just to see how I can create an actual regime. Yesterday, I tried to due a 100% 24 hour juice fast. I went to Fruitilandia (a restaurant that has a bar of fresh fruit and vegetables, you pick what you want them to make... salad, smoothie, or fresh juice; mix and match; unlimited additions, no added crap) and had them juice a combination of only carrots, apples, and celery. But then I got sick! I wasn't sure from what. I felt fine all day, but I think the carrot juice had upset my body. I got dizzy, nauseated, and tired. Each time I sipped water, I felt a pang of nausea. SOMETHING wasn't right. So I took a nap and that helped a bit. Then I involuntary threw up all the juice I had from the day. That helped quite a bit. But I ended up having to break my fast. :( I was so disappointed and I was so very motivated to continue, but mom was nagging and forced me to eat something. I said, "You're ruining my colon cleanse, mom." She rolled her eyes, "just eat something! What's wrong with my cooking? Tofu and shrimp is not fattening." She kept thinking I was trying to starve myself to lose weight. But I wasn't. I mean any pounds I shed from detox is great, but it wasn't my first priority.

Today didn't go so well either. I found out we had a fairly new juicer that dad had from two years ago when he did wheatgrass detoxes for his liver cancer. I was relieved and excited, so for breakfast I juiced a glass of nectarine, green grapes, basil, cucumber, and a few tablespoons of yesterday's carrot juice (I have like 2 pints of that crap). Tasted pretty good, but then I had some water. Pang of nausea AGAIN. So I'm led to believe there's something wrong with the water. Ugh, maybe it's me?

I also bought a scale yesterday from Wal-Mart for $17. Anyhow, I broke my fast again today with a small piece of tuna. And Nick was right, I should ease myself into the detox fasts. I usually have three meals a day and snacks in between. That's fine, but not when you're stressed out and verbally fighting most of the week.

I have decided that I would ease myself into it by slowly replacing each meal with a liquid meal. Maybe I can start a 100% 24 hour juice fast by August 1st. When I finally do the real juice fast, I'm thinking to do a vlog about it. Nick and I are working on our blog, it's up but there aren't any posts yet.

Feel free to visit: http://outofgumfitness.blogspot.com

It's hard to be so public about weight and actual body shots. But I think if it's always private (like I have usually been), it's easier to fall off the wagon because no one really knew and there wasn't anyone to disappoint.

I'm gonna do this! Aja aja, fighting!

The Road to a Healthier Me!

Alright, so I know it's not too long before it's 3am. But I'm just so excited on this new journey that I am about to embark on.

First of all, I had a realization... an epiphany... that I need to fucking DO something about my health. Not only have I gained weight, but the largest concern is what you can see happening to my body as I am becoming unhealthier each day. My allergies have been out of control, my womanly cycle isn't regular and something is always inflamed.

Recently, I've had an allergy on my hands and fingers (vesicular eczema). They don't itch, they are just very uncomfortable and sometimes stings. I usually only get these when I'm having a severe allergic reaction to something (which is generally hot spicy, Indian tandoori that contains cumin) and goes away after a couple of days of treatment. But this time, they have stayed for two weeks.

My doctor claims nothing is wrong with me and I'm just paranoid. If I had better insurance, I would get a few more opinions. Anyhow, I did some reading and here is where my epiphany occured. My body is suffering from an overload of toxins! I read all of the symptoms and I have them all.

So then I did a lot of reading on detox and how to do it without spending hundreds of dollars a day in a spa. The solution? According to the raw foods diet, a "master cleanse" is done to give the body a break from toxins through fasting. Whether if it's just juice or water fasting, the break from solid foods and/or unnatural foods will allow the body to release toxins faster and more sufficiently. Blood cleanses itself, illness within cells shrink, fatty livers shrink, colon and skin and even the mind becomes clearer, and so on and so forth. Some people do different types of fasts and what not, which ranges anywhere from 24 hours to 60 days.

I thought starting the road to a healthier me would have a great start by detoxing first. Another great thing about fasting is that the body burns off fat because fat is considered very toxic. So I'm thinking to do a fast that is a mixture of water and juice (I don't have a juicer!) that is about 3 to 5 days. I wanted to do one day, but I read that one day isn't enough which makes sense because I've done fasts before for religious purposes and one day doesn't really do or feel like much. They say that the body doesn't really detox until the 10th day. But I'm just testing the waters as I've never fasted without any solids before.

So we all need TRUE support when doing something as serious as making a transformation in one's life. And my friend Nick has agreed to do fasts and exercise with me in order to create more healthy lifestyles for ourselves. Plus, Nick is an organic/spiritual freak like I am so it makes it more easy to endure!

Cheers to health!

Random Bunches of Oats

Hello world,

I am tired and sleepy, but I ate a bunch of cherries and am trying to wait for all of them to digest. Anyhow, I'll give you a brief update of mi vida loca.

Just now:


I am a pathetic 63%.

Last couple of days, I have also been debating on what cell phone carrier to switch to. I'm thinking either Boost Mobile or Virgin Mobile. Although the people from Howard Forums are trying their hardest to get me to with Page Plus Cellular, I don't want to make a drastic decision to move to a company I had never heard of. Even though the little bit of research that I did do claims that it began back in 1998 and is therefore older than all of the cell phone companies (Cingular, Boost, VM, Verizon, etc.).

Anyhow, I'm leaning towards Boost Mobile because they are what Cricket Wireless used to be just minus the lack of coverage Cricket suffered.

Although I just recently bought the Virgin Mobile X-TC off of Craigslist, I think I may resell it just to move to Boost. So what should I do, readers?

On another note, I feel in love again. It's beautiful because the communication always saves us when the magic dissipates. And as usual, misunderstandings and outside factors interrupted what was truly and naturally there. At least there's effort, right? Right. *heart*

I feel like writing in brown.

** 10 minutes later **

I just realized that the color of all my posts are in brown already.
Wow.

Quick Fix for the Lone Hearted

Starbucks' Vanilla Bean Dark Chocolate Truffles. I guarantee you that when the lonely heart strikes its worst, these babies will shine light on some hope. Binge eating? If you eat the whole box in one sitting maybe. Is it ok? Who cares! Your life depends on it!

Recommended treatment: vent your feelings to those you are upset at, have a close and trusted friend reassure you, eat two of these, voila. Things might not be cured or might not have changed, but life sure does look a hell of a lot better.

The Lack of Significance in a Significant Other

How does one express their sense of insignificance? With life, love, friends, and everything else that we believe is supposed to make us feel whole? And when it comes to the point that enough bravery, guts, and gloomy glory has been gathered... there is no one there to unleash yourself for. No one who will reassure your significance in their life. No one who will listen and help create an idea or plan of action for change. Change. Why is change so often spoken of, yet never enforced? Accepted? Maintained? Why is love exchanged for lust? Why is trust traded with guilt? Having the willpower to speak up is brave, but expecting a different outcome each time is idiocy.

Am I the idiot?

More could be said, but less would be understood.
Peace and acceptance could be done, but shedding tears is a truer reality.

Or at least it is mine.

More wants to be said, needs to be said. But the words seem to hold no value. No price. No significance.

Finances...

I'm not as stressed out as I used to be. I think the idea of not being able to afford anything has settled in and my "eh, whatever" morale has finally come. I've been trying all day to e-sign what was left of the loans, but I guess their servers are still down.

I also keep writing down how much a year of college will cost and guess what, I keep losing the paper! So I figure I can just post it here and not worry about if I threw it away or not.

San Francisco State Univ.'s Cost of Attendance is $22,158/year or $11,079/semester.

Break down (per semester):

Registration Fees ...$2,034
Books ......................$867
Housing+Meals ......$5,985
Personal Expenses $1,557
Transportation Ex...$636
Total........................$11,079

But what they don't stress to everyone is that the COA is an estimate and not every student will spend the same amount in transportation and personal expenses. I thought it was sad because instead, they stress you out (or least I was) on having enough to cover fees. You have no idea how many e-mails and letters I've gotten in BOLD RED CAPS saying my admission will be revoked if fees aren't covered.

Another stress was the amount of loans I almost took out. If I hadn't realized that the COA was an estimate, I would have probably taken out an extra $2,503 in loans, which excludes the borrowing fees and the accruing monthly interest.

Available moolah: $19,655/year or $9,828/semester

Break down (per semester):

US Grant/Scholarship...............................$2,675
SFSU Scholarship.....................................$1,677
US Academic Competitiveness Award....... $350
Financial Need Grant................................ $776
Work Study............................................ $2,000

Perkins Loan (interest after grad.)......... $600
Subsidized Loan
(interest paid by gov't while in school)... $1,750

Total Aid .....................................................$9,828


So I figured I should add up all the important things (registration fees, books, housing) and subtract it from the available moolah.

$9,828-$8,886= $941
$941/2 items (personal & transportation) = $470.50
$470/4 months in Fall semester ~ $117

So $117 is how much I would have for each. I thought about this and I'm really thinking I wouldn't be using the bus much. Not $100 worth anyway. I was thinking to cut it down it $50 and give myself $150 for personal expenses (pads, FOOD, etc.). Well, what do you think? The financial aid office said I could take out the other loans I was granted at any time. The ones I declined are tricky and I really don't have the means to pay for the interest on those.

Moments like these are when I wish I had loaded parents. lol, My journey to weight loss begins!

College: What I REALLY Want

Alright, so I have never asked or said what I wanted (in terms of luxury living) for my dorm. I've been pondering light storms on how I could keep my tea regime in the dorm room. And then it struck me. An electric kettle. I thought of it while in the bathroom washing my hands, funny, I know. I hoped and prayed that such a thing existed. And apparently it does, especially in Europe! America was just slow to catch up (go figure).

I found one on Amazan.com for under $20. It's cheap and gets the job done and I love the idea of it because it boils water, meaning it's versatile and I'll be able to make other things like ramen and oatmeal!

Product Description
Housed in a smooth, modern-looking design, this 1000-watt electric kettle rapidly boils up to 1 quart of water for coffee, tea, instant soups, and more. The unit features a detachable cord and a nonspill spout for graceful serving, plus a generous handle with a secure grip. Its immersed heating element provides a rapid and quiet heating process, making it ideal for the office, home, or college dorm. Dual water-level indicators allow for convenient filling, and the unit's easy-open lid is designed with a security lock to prevent spilling. And there's no need to worry about leaving it on, the kettle automatically shuts off when the water boils, and its boil-dry protection keeps the unit from boiling when there's no water left

It must be a great product because it has 400 customer reviews and it still maintains 4/5 stars. I really, really want this! Ahhhhhhh! Going away gift, anyone???? :(

Midnight Tricks

OK--so it's not quite midnight... hell, it's almost 1AM. I've been looking around, reading reviews on Windows Vista (may buy a cheap laptop for school, but Vista is the only option as an operating system). I love Windows XP Professional, especially now with its sturdy Service Pack 3 (yes, I am indeed aware of Windows 7 coming out in October, but I can't wait that long). So all this reading and asking around on Vista's performance, I was really diggin' the look of it. And so here I am, satisfying my curiosity on tweaking my desktop...

Before the "hunt"



After the "hunt"



I feel so dorky, lol. As far as Vista goes, it's kind of 50/50 on its stability. People who have reliable inputs say it's alright and will "grow" on me. I think I'll consider it and return the OS and go back to XP if it doesn't work out. I just really hate the common note that, "Vista uses a lot of resources to function."

Meh, let's just hope I even have the financial means to make such a purchase. (It's free to window shop, right??!)

Roasted Tandori Chicken, Beyatch

Looks so good, eh? Thank you, thank you... *bows*

Classes!

Job hunting has been negative... I doubt I'll get a job, considering that I have an internship for two weeks at the end of July.

So I was looking at my classes and was confirming the schedule or whatever. So it looks like this:

Mondays & Wednesdays: Political Science 10-11a; English 1-3p
Tuesdays & Thursdays: Philosophy 9-11a; Math 12-2p
Fridays: Political Science 11a-12p; English 1-3p

I suppose it looks good? On Monday mornings, classes don't start until 10am, which is great for weekend recovery right?. I always have a break at 12pm...for an hour! And no classes after 3pm. Yesssss.

No luck on finding a roommate, though. I have until July 2nd to submit a preferred roommate. I don't want some random drunktard! =(

Gradu-what?

I know it has been a while since I have made an entry. So some big things have happened... I don't really feel like typing each play-by-play. So I'm going to just give you the gist of it all.

On May 20th, I went to the Salute to Excellence Banquet. Some of you probably already know about it, but I know there are some people who are very dear to me who have no clue. Out of 3,600 graduating seniors in San Diego County, 83 were chosen for being in the top 1% of their class. I got a cool medal, certificate of achievement, and a fancy pen. I felt kind of bad because I didn't really have any emotion about it... but that doesn't mean I didn't care. At first, I didn't think it was real lol. Anyhow, the school was very excited because I was their first student to ever receive such recognition.

Then there was graduation rehearsal, finals, had my last newspaper meeting (more like a party and passed out certificates of appreciation to a select few). Alright, so the funny thing that happened was that I while I was walking to get my medal at the Salute to Ex., I found out I was valedictorian of my class. So of course I was like, "...what?" When did this happen! And what a crappy way to find out! Anyhow, from then on, I accepted it and chose to give a speech. At first I didn't, but it wasn't the right thing to do. I mean, who's had a valedictorian and NOT have a speech? I certainly didn't want to be the first senior to do that. :\

It sucked because most people get their entire second semester to write it. Oh well, I made one up in a few weeks.

On graduation day, the seniors and a few teachers went out to have a Mexican styled breakfast in an old part of San Diego. My feet hurt, I was mostly either barefoot or in heels. The food WAS GOOD, I had Chorizo con Huevos and orange juice.

Alright, so before graduation, the school had a barbecue and Sharp Hospital TV crew was walking around filming. It was weird because I kept hiding and they kept trying to film, "the big shot." They finally got me and I said my blah blahs.

It was time to "walk" and some of the admin forgot that I got a yellow chord to wear which signifies honor students. Only about 2-3 students got one, so I felt extra special. :-P
Anyhow, I had no idea so it wasn't like I could have reminded them. Who forgets that?

OK--so here's the speech. The video was crap, so I separated the audio from video.

Graduated!

Now I'm sitting at home doing nothing. Trying to find a job, but having difficulties because no one wants to hire someone who can only work 2 months. Hopefully, if God willing, I'll be able to pay off the $1,4000 deposit for the dorms at San Francisco State. I have $560 now...only $840 to go. Grawwr.

MaiMai's Online Quizzes

Personality Test - You are a HELPER WHO FINDS MISSING CHILDREN OVER THE INTERNET (SICF). You are very tentative in the world and introverted with people— which means you are the shy and silent type (hence the Internet.) But behind your reserved exterior lies a dedicated person with a passion for the concrete truth who wants to, in his heart of hearts, help find missing children. God bless you.

Real Gender Test - You are a MAN! Compared to other women who took this test, 66% are more feminine than you and men are only 28% more masculine than you.How do we know? Well, deep down, your gender affects everything about you, from your favorite number to your views on Canada. Many men who took the test think and act just like you, as you can see from the graph above. Statistically speaking, you are a man—whether you know it or not.

How Dateable Are You? - 60% Dateable!

That's lower than the Worldwide Dateability Average of 62%!

You are neither more nor less dateable than your peers— welcome to the land of mediocrity, home of the masses! You have an undeniable animal magnetism, but you're just as likely to attract small animals as you are to attract human beings. Nevertheless, the people you flirt with generally find you funny and cute, or "fute." You have good hygiene, which is an imporant aspect of relationships involving two or more people. Avoid seafood and walks in the woods.

Disgusted

I am so frustrated right now, you have aboslutely no idea. I'm growing more and more tired and agitated of my family members and other people who do similar annoying things.

• Whining. My family doesn't do this, but my classmates do. Seriously, wtf? The mean age is 19 and still you are whining about a particular fucking marker? Oh and my favorite, when someone sits somewhere and it pisses you off because you had planned for your posse to surround you and distract you during study group. Big fucking props to you, woohoo!
• Laziness. So they both do this. I know I do this, too, but not so extensively. We've got dad who doesn't dare to make his own beverages and then you have the 19-somethings upset about walking two blocks or grabbing an extra math book. Do they really think the real world is so easy?
• Dirty. OK, so this is the last place for me. Anything dirty really is a nerve breaker for me. It's like squeezing limes over a wound that was already salted. My classmates DO NOT pick up after themselves. Soda cans, chips, snipped paper, you name it, is laying around the floor. My family suffers from this, too. I don't care if you don't make your bed, but leaving dirty dishes on the living room floor IS BEYOND ME. What ticked me off today was the bathroom. I came home needing to shower away the sweat from the warm day and I hear squish-squish at the soles of my Adidas. I look down and the damn rug is wet. I asked what happened and it turns out that the toilet over flowed for reasons no one will admit to. I think I finally lost it when I looked in the bathroom and the floor was still in puddles. NO ONE HAD THE COURTESY TO MOP IT UP OR POUR BLEACH ANYWHERE. I said, "so you guys just left it like that all day?" and the reply was, "Yep." What the fuck?

Can't wait to get out of here and live in complete bliss of cleanliness and rationality.

Effin' Record Breaking

Supposedly, I survived this. I hate anything above 75F degrees. Uneven tans, sweaty breasts, constant showers, etc. etc. Not the best way to start a week.

A strong ridge of high pressure aloft is blocking any potential storms from entering the nation and it is keeping temperatures on the toasty side.

Los Angeles hit a blistering 100 degrees on Monday and San Diego tied an April record with a high of 98 degrees.

Highs may be a bit less on Tuesday but more daily records may fall in cities like Sacramento, Calif., Portland, Ore., and Reno, Nev.

In addition, Phoenix, Ariz. may see their first 100 degree high of 2009.

Highs will be in the 70s and 80s through much of the Northwest.

The Desert Southwest will be blazing where 90s and 100s are likely.

More 90s can be expected through the Central Valley of California.

An increased onshore flow will help decrease temperatures along the immediate coast of California.

Areas that saw snow late last week and over the weekend will see a rapid snow melt in the coming days, bringing a potential for flooding.

Wednesday into Thursday a cold front will push south into the Northwest cooling temperatures down throughout much of the West by late week as the strong ridge aloft gives way to a colder trough. -Weather.com

Operation Chipmunk Face: 72 Hour Update

Why am I up at 1AM? I think the involuntary sleeping I do all day has something to do with it...

Plus loneliness. =(

I have kind of worked myself up. I felt fine yesterday... felt lucid, talkative, hungry, and so on and so forth. But today, I woke up feeling like absolute S-H-I-T. It's been about maybe three days since surgery and I would have expected the rest of my upcoming days to be like yesterday.

I felt so dizzy that I fell in the tub this morning while showering (which I was looking forward to because I hadn't showered in four days!). Am I not reacting well to the penicillin vk? The more I take, the dizzier I am. Then my arm hurts like hell, too. The IV site was bruised all weekend. I hope I wasn't allergic to the anesthesia?

My other worry is that maybe there's nothing wrong with the penicillin. In addition to the dizziness, I have a throbbing discomfort along the left side of my gums and cheeks. Sometimes other teeth throb. Maybe I'm experiencing Alveolar osteitis ("dry socket")? But the little I did get to see when I peeked in my mouth, I didn't see anything that resembles an "empty hole with exposed bone." All I see are discolored gums, an incision line and some exposed stitching. I haven't taken any codeine since Friday night because I hate the feeling I get from it. I've decided to tough it out and resort to the high dose of narcotics when REALLY desperate. But at the same time....when am I desperate? We all know I'm a stubborn bitch.

My follow-up appointment is Friday at 4:30...do you think I can wait that long? Should I call the office? I don't want to jump to conclusions.

Also, I'm SO HUNGRY. Everyone has been eating so well around me. Chocolate waffles here, crunchy apples there, fried chicken and what not. Ugh, baby food! If I see another jar of smashed peas, I'm gonna flip.

I want some orange chicken so bad... so bad... *sobs*

Surgery =(

Currently on second day of recovery and am still slowly "waking up." Can't say much as I don't have much of a clear head. Have been in so much pain the past two weeks. Finally settled insurance out and had an emergency extraction. Had all four out surgically. Hated anesthesia. Don't remember a thing... was talking and all of a sudden everything was pitch black. Next thing I was waking up crying in the recovery room. Lower impactions caused my second molars to have 40% bone loss. Upper impacted teeth were too close to sinus cavity, so I had sinus sutures. Jaw bone had bone loss, so I also had synthetic bone implants. Jaw hurts. Need food, but can't keep anything down...thus stomach aches from hunger. Been eating baby food. Been throwing up whatever I eat, in addition to involuntary pools of blood seeping from my lips. Face has swelled 3x than its normal size. Cheeks are sewn into gums, so I communicate thru a pen and pad and can only open mouth for about 2 inches. I am still in post-anesthesia-shock. Also tripping out on codeine and enduring cramping caused by penicillin vk. I wanted to keep my wisdom teeth, but the doctor threw them away because he had to break them apart in order to extract them.

Trying not to fall asleep (again) so I don't miss another dosage of antibiotics (again). This kind of thing happens to everyone, but why do I have such a crappy case and feel like a bulldozer ran over my face?

Before



After (my siblings wanted me to communicate w/them through Nintendo DS chat)

Rise to Fall

For some reason, I feel like shedding a tear or two. Somehow a lot of people believe that I could never be sad, depressed, or lost. Even some of my teachers say they can't imagine me being "down." I suppose I am pretty good at acting like I'm ontop of things. But sometimes, sometimes... I don't feel like doing it anymore. I feel tired of being the one to pick up others' morale and cheer them up. Tired of being the one to recall small details about everyone, especially those close to me. Tired of having to ask to be remembered in any way. If I didn't speak up about anything, I'd be forgotten. What makes them happy, what stirs them up, et cetera, et cetera. Sometimes I feel like a fraud.

Who's going to show me I'm special for "Just Because" reasons? That's why I have trust issues because I know I could never let myself down... but sometimes I do, how contradicting. So what's my diagnosis, doc?

Movie Date

So my friend Lusi and I had a movie date, a sort of belated Valentine's date kind of thing. I figured since neither of our "significant others" were considerate enough to say Happy Valentine's Day and so on and so forth that we were going to treat each other out. I picked her up, brought a teddy bear, flowers, and candy. And she paid for my movie ticket and popcorn. We've been dying to see Underworld: Rise of the Lycans because we're both fans of the previous two movies. But when we finished the movie, we were kind of disappointed because we were expecting more of a continuation from the last movies. I was definitely hoping to see more of the Michael Corvin (Corvinus) character because he is definitely one of my fantasies (Iron Man is still #1 of course). I mean come on, a dude who's wolf and vampire? Any day man, any day. I think in the first Underworld, Selene actually witnessed Sonja's execution and was a little girl at the time. The movie focused mainly on Lucian, his love Sonja, and how the war between Lycans and vampires developed. For what it was about, I suppose it was a good movie. It wasn't horrendous. 7/10

However, the main objective of the outing was to have each other's company... especially during a time of loneliness. We spent an hour looking through department stores, Lusi got a deal on corduroy pants from Macy's for $10. And I looked at makeup (I am becoming interested in learning how to use it), particularly for my thin, unfortunate Asian eyebrows. I am just about 18 years old and am beginning to think I should learn how to use brow powder, lol. I then drove her home and walked her to her door (or elevator rather). It was nice, but short. I suppose I should be extremely appreciative because it was the first time dad let me out after dark (got home at 8:30).

I am my own Valentine

I'm quite exhausted. I spent the day in turmoil because just this once, just once, I didn't want to be the one who remembered to say Happy Valentine's Day, Sweetheart. As always, I have to initiate everything in order to feel appreciated the way I want to be. Why can't it be understood that my heart desires little things? Huge, extravagant gifts do not matter. It's the fact that I was remembered and for once, letting me pity your feelings wasn't a concern. So yeah, that was lurking in the back of my head all day.

On the other hand, I had a dentist appointment and had two fillings done. I also got conversationally terrorized by my 8-year dentist regarding my lack of duty to floss and questioned why I can cook lobster better than his assistants. Anyway. I have impacted wisdom teeth and require surgery. I have a referral to see an oral surgeon, but we all know my anxiety prevents me from making that phone call. I paid the phone bill, wrote out some checks, put gas in the car (long lines and got cut off by two elderly bitches), dropped dad off at law library, picked up brother, got donuts (depression caved in), bitched at a cashier about returns, went home to find computer fucked over by trojans (no pun intended), picked dad up, and spontaneously went on a walk at Harbor Island. I saw two weddings going on, how cliche. I mean come on, Valentine's Day?? At least do it on a random holiday, like Halloween or something. Or 4th of July. Anyway, I took a random shot from my phone during the walk:

Gorgeous, isn't it? I just wish I felt as breathtaking as the picture. Anyway, back to my paper on thermodynamics...

PS: The book I mentioned in a previous post, The 19th Wife, is a great read. Nearly halfway done (attempting to finish whenever I have spare time).