you never realize how stressed and pressured you make me feel. you make me never want to be around you. i want to go to san francisco and never come back. i'm tired of it. everyday, i cry. everyday, i want to not live anymore. i stare through the kitchen window and cry. if you don't care, then i don't care. you make me want to drop out of college and just be nothing but an object at your disposal. why can't you do things yourself, why do you refuse to learn how to something. i hate myself, i hate living, everyday is unfortunate because i realize i'm still alive when i wake up. maybe i should just keep taking these medications and keep going to the ER until i don't get to leave. i can't believe you had me walk back to the car for my wallet while in the ER. if i could do that, i wouldn't need to be at the fucking hospital. you make me not ever want to get married. i just want to be alone. i don't want to see people, i hate going out just to do something for myself because you make me regret it when i get back home. i try to you love you. i always make excuses for you.
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