what does

the world mean to me? to you? should it matter to me as it does to you?

how about when i'm sad? when you're happy and i'm gone, wasting and sailing away?

when i'm down, low

and you're up, high,

soaring with all that there is and everything to do?

how would it be, let's say...

we're in the ocean, winter breeze, consumed in this blue empty space... shall i stay?

how is it, if i closed my eyes

soul faded

wasted days dated

with you and yourself, ...i slowly hated

what does presence mean to you? yours?

...mine?

Budget for Books, y'all

Remember my last book blog entry? Well, the only book I read off of it was The 19th Wife, which was GOOD. And so I'm going through a reading craze again, I just... I just want and need to feed it!!! Prices include book and shipping! :o

1. The Wives of King Henry VIII........ $4.37

2. King Arthur and His Knights of the Round Table ....... $4.98

3. A Young Girl's Crimes ....... $9.99
WTF, this one is only 192 pages?! Ugh, library anyone?

Anyway, goodnight!

Fitness Update (crap start AGAIN)

http://outofgumfitness.blogspot.com/2010/04/mai-random-restart.html

College? Dorm drama. No space. No sleep. Greasy food. Lazy tendencies.

Work? Hard. Repetitive. Awesome boss, MLE. :)

Summary: school is a bitch, decided not to work next year, will be in more debt. However my job is wonderful, although tiring.

Brief Morning Hello

Well it has certainly been a while.

Here we go, bullet update:

• Tired easily, working 18-20 hours a week, in addition to classes and small study time
• Bio 230 is hard shit, midterm already coming up next week
• Wanting to go home next weekend since we get a 4 day weekend, but not enough $$$
• Still on period, went to student health center and am on estrogen
• Wondering if period will ever go away... annoyed + scared
• Can't believe Di turned 20 two days ago...............................
• Wondering when roommate will clean the bathroom
• I want Gabby to teach me how to knit a beanie
• Still pretty excited about Nine West purchases last week... all under $30 (wallet $13, purse $12)

Time to go to class.... will upload purse later.

Mumbo Jumbo

• So tired, my guess is because of the 4 weeks of period. Making me anemic or something.
  
• Winter break is practically over! Guh, I fly back to San Francisco Sunday night. I hope the storm is over so I don't get delayed... If I do, I'll get there super late and don't have enough money to take a taxicab as the bus lines close down at 11pm.
  
• Knitting is on a momentary hault, but I bought new yarns... white and red XD
• I don't want to go back to school.......... actually, the dorms just ruin everything.
• My feet have been peeling since November and I thought it was athlete's foot, but I guess it isn't! Dad let me try his medicine his doctor prescribed and it worked within 24hours! I suppose it's just his bad genetics kicking in
• Glytone Retexturize Cream is the shit, but it's expensive :(
• I want these:

Knitting Update #4: Blue/Black Pouch

Just finished another one. I don't know about you, but I keep making damn pouches. However, I did learn the purling stitch and how to add different colored yarn (hence the black stripes). I wonder if I'm ready to make a hat?

F**k the First Semester

♪ "When Love Takes Over" - David Guetta f/Kelly Rowland

Finally got my grades for the Fall semester. And... needless to say, I am very much disappointed and somewhat depressed. My transfer GPA to SFSU was 3.86 (while my SFSU GPA was 0.0 of course). And now that the first semester at SFSU is over, I... I was embarrassed to mention it, and even went as far as thinking I failed medical school before even applying, but whatever. I need to accept it and move on to fix it. My cumulative GPA dropped down to 3.42 and my SFSU GPA is a 2.70. Yes, that's right. The first time in my life that I have ever been below 3.50. I almost cried. If that remedial math course that I got an 'A' actually counted, I would probably be at least a 3.0.

I guess I should look at the bright side, my cumulative GPA is over 3.0.....

I'm done sobbing. I'm going to move on and make myself try differently. Spring semester, I am only taking 3 courses (12 units). I am going to spread out my hours at work more throughout the week so I actually have some days where I get off at 3PM (giving me 2-3 extra hours to study during the day).

Next year... if I don't get that Resident Assistant's job (my own room as well as free housing and meals), I won't be holding any other job. I will be 100% on loans whether I like it or not. I can't afford to have another semester with crap grades again. Especially since I noticed I can't pull late nights like I used to in high school. *sigh* I just can't be superwoman anymore.