An apology to him ♥

The largest thing that has been in my focus as of late is most definitely, my relationship with Christopher. I don't think he checks my blog regularly because he has so many things going on back home with his family and attempting to stand out in the dark employment world. I know I have my moments where I publicly scorn him through the social networks that I am on or vent to friends (rarely happens because I feel guilty yapping my mouth, especially since nearly all my friends are single) about how disappointed he makes me. And I'll be honest, he does disappoint me. He does upset me and I do catch him lying about some things that he's not supposed to be doing.

But all in all, it's all a part of being invested in a relationship. I realized that we have known each other for quite a long time and friends and some family members have came and went during those years. During that span, I have forgotten some things on what it takes to be in a successful relationship. After days of conversation and taking a few steps back, he and I have refreshened our memories and why we get along so well and why it was so easy for us to fall in love. We have great intellectual conversations, we can have fun together, we love being idiots and exploring our childlike behaviors, we make each other laugh, we talk things out, give each other advice, and so much more. And so I want to apologize to him and also to anyone who reads my entries because I feel that I have misrepresented him. And from now on, I am going to try and publicize the positives he puts in my life as much as I do the negatives.

♥