$20 @ Charlotte Russe

I just may go back tomorrow and get one of them.... :') HELP!! SHOPAHOLIC ON THE LOOSE!

Dong Yi

I swear, mom has truly brainwashed me into being interested in her kDrama.

:)

Samsung TL210

Polyvore, you whore!

So I was on Polyvore.com (thanks to Bhre) and it's a website that allows you to put together outfits and what not. ANYWAY. If I had a careless shopping spree fund, I would totally invest in clothes to put together outfits like these. Fuck my weight insecurities, I love myself (more than I used to) and I want to DRESS UP.

Family (un)tie(s).

After being away for a little over a month and being stuck in the airport for six hours waiting to hop on a 75 minute flight back to San Diego, I have forgotten what it was truly like to be home. Some family members try to make it clear that I don't live here... reinforcing the idea that I'm unwelcome.

Fuck. I don't feel like explaining. All in all... I feel lonely, unsure and most definitely homeless. I'm not at home in San Diego because I can't be myself nor visit friends the way that I wish to. I'm not truly at home in San Francisco because I'm not particular about roommates and it also doesn't feel right to be somewhere that your parents aren't near.

I'm an orphan that no one has time to acknowledge or understand.

a txt msg one evening...

and so he sent me a text message, it said:

You are my gift from God.

Made my day.

:-)

I hate it when

I'm watching the Chinese music countdown on television and I hear a song I really like, but I can't get it because the title of the song and the name of the artist is in Chinese.

fml.

Forever 21 Nail Polish Splurge

Switching from dark shimmery polishes to light/pastel, matte colors.

Tried the salmon pink, I think I like it?

All this "young" drama is exhausting.

I definitely miss the older aged friends who believe in reciprocating respect and sincerity.

Fuck instability.

Droppin' the fakes.

It only needs to happen once because my kindness is a motha fuckin gift.

So fuck you and yo' moma who didn't know how to raise you with some real courtesy.

I'm just sayin'

An apology to him ♥

The largest thing that has been in my focus as of late is most definitely, my relationship with Christopher. I don't think he checks my blog regularly because he has so many things going on back home with his family and attempting to stand out in the dark employment world. I know I have my moments where I publicly scorn him through the social networks that I am on or vent to friends (rarely happens because I feel guilty yapping my mouth, especially since nearly all my friends are single) about how disappointed he makes me. And I'll be honest, he does disappoint me. He does upset me and I do catch him lying about some things that he's not supposed to be doing.

But all in all, it's all a part of being invested in a relationship. I realized that we have known each other for quite a long time and friends and some family members have came and went during those years. During that span, I have forgotten some things on what it takes to be in a successful relationship. After days of conversation and taking a few steps back, he and I have refreshened our memories and why we get along so well and why it was so easy for us to fall in love. We have great intellectual conversations, we can have fun together, we love being idiots and exploring our childlike behaviors, we make each other laugh, we talk things out, give each other advice, and so much more. And so I want to apologize to him and also to anyone who reads my entries because I feel that I have misrepresented him. And from now on, I am going to try and publicize the positives he puts in my life as much as I do the negatives.

♥

Super foods for super beauty.

So I'm watching the Dr. Oz show, and he said:

Protection from sun damage - pink grapefruit (rich in lycopene)

Prevents wrinkles - red bell peppers (has 2x vitamin C and 1/3 of calories of an orange; eat 1/4cup a day)

Prevents acne - collard greens (vitamin A, allows skin to exfoliate naturally)

Prevents dry skin - trout

Reduces inflamation & redness - capers (rich in quercetin, natural antihistamine)