who in a relationship has to work so hard just to get the actual truth?!

a simple question leads to an interrogation. i’m not controlling at all. it just breaks my heart to find out later i’ve been lied to.

why. just why.

you make me want to curl up into a ball and cry at the world.

i know you can love me with all your heart. but why can’t you be honest with me like the way you supposedly love me. i want to believe that honest is supposed to be coupled with love.

all of this over cigarettes  i shouldn’t have to feel this way over cigarettes  i feel this way because you lie and promise me empty promises to my face about it.

and it hurts. it hurts how big of a lie you can create over such a small thing. i want to help you through quitting, but it pains my heart to offer you such genuine support and trust to help you through your addiction when you spit all over it with lies.