I haven't been on a computer in nearly a week. I've probably checked my Gmail a few times from my sister's phone. Since school is out and I have no real scholastic work to do, I dread being near the damn thing. Many people can't stand even turning off their computers, they instead just have it in "sleep mode" so it's readily accessible when boredom becomes too much to bear. As I continue to get older, I realize that my attachment to this thing has decreased tremendously. I see it more and more as just a machine. I remember the days where I couldn't go a day without signing into a messenger and seeing if anyone was online so I may feel like I have "socialized." I can't really explain, not even to myself, why I just don't care for it anymore. The Internet is a boundless medium that can take me anywhere, but in reality, I'm still sitting in a room... in a chair... still physically nowhere. Kinda pointless, eh? Actually, I think I am beginning to develop a phobia. I don't even want to watch movies on it anymore. X_x
So... what am I doing during the day? I'm usually doing a combination of:
- Taking dad to the doctor
- Driving mom & siblings
- Store runs
- Babysitting
- Cleaning the house (imagine what a house looks like without Alice to cleanup after the Brady Bunch kids) ...seriously, dishes are overflowing the sink at least 3x a day.
- Brushing up on my PHYSICS for next semester >_<
- At the library, reading biographies
- Doing dad's "To Do List" (he makes one for me like every fucking day)
- And if I have time, ...harmless daydreaming :)

Now that I think about it... it's kind of nice to not be dependent on the computer or my cell phone or burdened by due dates. It's even nicer to not have to worry about having to pretend to want to "hang out." My mind, for once in a long time, can think a little more freely.

I think I am content being a hermit crab for the time being.