I have been debating about this for the last few days (in between number crunches and essay writings) and I realized something... I honestly do not want to switch to Tumblr. The reasons, which I have secretly once considered to be denials, to switching over would be for one reason: "everyone has one." Which is a poor and unfortunate rationale in order to make such a large and committed move for. I must say that I know blogspheres may be nothing or unimportant to be so perplex or indecisive about, but I feel that I have been blogging for so long, that I am rather attached to the the originality of my own individuality. In the beginning, I felt out of the loop from others and I loved the idea of having "followers" and the ease of having a continuous growing fan base. I previously considered Tumblr, but talked myself out of the move because I'm lazy and I am rather attached to keeping my archives. As I learn Tumblr's interface from the perspective of a serious blogger's level, I realized, what the fuck am I doing?? I saw that Tumblr, in comparison to Blogspot, is not as easy to to edit in HTML terms. If I can't click a button to have my text aligned in my favorite way, justified, or click on an edit HTML tab and add my own code jargons and it ACTUALLY SHOW UP in the final result... then maybe, maybe I do not have the patience for Tumblr. I do not want to down Tumblr users at all and there are plentiful bloggers that I enjoy reading and visiting who use Tumblr. However, I honestly feel like Tumblr's interface is more along the lines of a Facebook or Myspace. It is another medium to network socially, which is rather bubblegum to me. I noticed that all of these realms that allow people to "network," has caused a change in myself that I do not favor... and that is the continuing loss of touch that I have with words, reading, or expressive notes I can create in multiple complex sentences or consistent paragraphs. While I moved some of my archives between 2007 and 2009, I noticed such a huge change in the way that I used to write. I noticed that my older posts used to be rather lengthy and my choice of words were intelligent compared to how I write now. Long story short, I feel that my writing skills have dumbed down. I could blame my efforts in allowing the number of bloggers or real life social circles I could participate in, but in reality, I blame myself. I blame myself for being so consumed in who is doing what and who did what to who that I let me go. Moving some of those older posts made me feel nostalgic for those late night, insightful entries. It has made me nostalgic of reading in order to learn for fun and researching something nerdy like chemicals in medications or the history of diseases during my "free time." I felt nostalgic of the real me: the nerdy hermit girl who wasn't entertained by hearsay and irresponsible loitering. I recall being in high school and crying over lacking large social circles, but now that I have the opportunity to be able to access such things with ease... I have learned that I really, truly was not missing much and that in fact, those people still are at lost of their own individual identity despite being of "adult" age for years.

In any event, for my own personal blog, I think I may hold off on Tumblr until I figure out the flexibility of its editing. And until then... whether or not I find my comfort in HTML and self choice, I will wait until I am actually bored of Blogspot and I am ready to conquer the Tumblr worlds. On my own. I apologize to anyone who might have gotten excited about the conversion (hell, I was excited too!) But for now, I will remain a Blogspot resident. :)