Friday, March 11, 2011

Today was such a hard and long day. I have been frustrated all around. This Friday was definitely one that went completely unplanned. I didn't plan to spend all day and night being paranoid about where my mom, my only mommy, was. It's her 45th birthday on Sunday and my uncle is also having a wedding the same day. So we decided she should fly to Jakarta, Indonesia... her home that she hasn't been to in 10 years, to surprise them. And here comes a big 9.0 earthquake and tsunami. I was scared and my phone buzzed continuously throughout the night last night and well into this evening. A few hours ago, mom's airlines finally told me her flight was rerouted to Haneda Int'l instead of Narita and she's scheduled to make her next connecting flight to Singapore at 9pm, Japan time. I don't know if mommy is personally alright, I only know of her flight information. But I'm hoping she's calm, full of her favorite snacks, and sleeping.

In addition to all of this panic I have been through in the last 48 hours, I also saw who my real... true friends were. Some disappointed and some surprised me with their indifference. It bothered me that some people said some insensitive things about the tsunami and its flooding. Some decided to say "fuck the tsunami, keep partying." Yes, I understand that the world keeps turning and what the fuck ever. But since we know each other, I would have expected a little more respect. It pisses me off that knowing your friend's mother might potentially be swept up in a flood doesn't matter to you because it wasn't your own family member. However, we all know that if it was their own relative, all hell will break lose. I want to say "fuck you" to those people, but I am so emotionally drained that I do not have the energy to even be spiteful. All I can say is that I am disappointed and I now know where the relationship stands.

In any event, I want to really thank those who called and kept checking up on me. And especially thank the very, very few, more like 1 or 2 people who went so far as to looking up the news and airport information to help me figure out where my mom could be. Thank you and I am ever so greatly appreciative.

I love my mom--the kind, naive, positive, nonjudgmental, fair, and sweetest person ever. She never hates anyone and always looks at the nicer side to all individuals... even those who have screwed her over. I strive to be just like her. I love her.

Please come home safely. :(

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